hey, sweetheart. remember me?

I hate you. But in the same time i miss you too. I miss your ego. I miss you to be mad at me, i miss myself to be mad at you. I miss the way you made me feel. I miss everytime we smile to ourselves each time our eyes met. I miss you. I hope i can write you stupid letters like the one you writtn to me. I hope i can tell you every single words trapped in my heart right now. I hope i can hug you and never let go.

How can i tell you that i missed you so damn much, if we both cant even look at each other? I realised that we both are afraid to be turn down by the fact that we can't hold on to the past anymore. How can i tell you that i still love you, if we both can't be in the same room anymore, afraid that tears would quickly streaming down our faces. I wanted to look into your eyes, talking to you, hearing your voice.

I miss you. Old sweet memories are gone now, those memories fades. I can't picture you anymore. And i don't want to forgets you. I miss you.