Questions, Tears and Puppets. Chapter 2.

Huh...

Is there anything that could possibly distract me from everything? Just anything from everything.

My dearest wish - as i stated yesterday - was not to hurt 'Beliau' so much.

Huh...

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I think there might be some misunderstanding regarding the use of "Beliau" and "Dia". "Beliau" is always the same person. And "Beliau" is someone aged under 18 !! Don't you dare think that you knew this person. "Dia" is actually someone random.

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How i missed "Beliau". I would usually focused on the face, detecting any slightest hints of ... missing me.

Huh...

Missing the good old days.

Huh...

Still in a bad condition.

I really want to know how "Beliau" can survived? Why am i still here, standing doing nothing? Wow, didn't realize that time changes almost everything! Why and how did "Beliau" recovered so fast ?????

Please, i just want to talk to u, share everything with u, face u with all the strenght i have and say i miss u. Please.

Questions, Tears and Puppets. Chapter 1

Whoa. Never knew i would write about this again. Am amazingly suprised when a friend told me that 'dia' read my blog. Huh. That means this is not a personal blog anymore. Dowh...

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Do agree with these.

"How can i move on, when i'm still in love with u"
"Everything will change, But love remain the same"

This.

"I want u to know, u couldn't have loved me better,
I want u to move on, and so i'm already gone... "

And also this.

"I wish i could tell u i'm feeling better everyday,
that i didn't hurted when u walked away.
But to tell u the truth, I can't find my way"

Conclude that.

Arghhhhh! Never thought it would be a tough year. I never really did care bout that stupid exam. I just thought that maybe this year, Kak Aleen would be in the school for her first year in secondary, and i would get distracted, even just for a while.

What i want most was not to hurt 'Beliau' and in return, hurt myself so badly. How foolish. How can 'dia' stand to watch me from faraway when i can't? 'Dia' give reactions that i didn't dare to expect and it turned out to be some kind of an 'everyday expressions'. What the hell was that?

Please, i've been hoping for too long. End this hopeless waiting. I am determined to leave. I can't stand bearing the pain piercing. Can't let the tears holding back for so long. How many years do i have to wait until the right shoulder shows up? I must move on.

But how?

Yes, but how?

Run.

That's the best way. That's the solution that everyone's been using, and found nothing in the end but tears missing the past.